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I'm beginning to realize just how many problems I have. Or maybe I realized a while ago, but now I'm just getting the guts to change myself.

I can feel it. I'm not the same person I was a month ago.

And because of that... I'm moving on. Slowly, but surely.

I'm moving on and finally letting go of Chicago and finally learning to embrace Sioux Falls.

I'm moving on and letting go of my safety blanket, these little worlds I lost myself and I'm living in the real world.

I'm moving on from my problems and fears and I'm getting professional help.

I'm moving on and I finally feel some hope.

It's a wonderful thing.

And, like the phoenix I took a nickname from almost a year ago... I'm being reborn from my ashes.

grizzlycub is being abandoned as a journal. I'm moving on to a different one, but this time I'm not telling everyone where I'm going. It'd be too easy to backslide.

A few people will get the new screenname, others won't. Not yet, at least. Maybe we'll meet on the internet again sometime. But for now, it's goodbye.

And if I'm honest with myself, it's been goodbye for a long while.

... Live long, love hard and prosper, guys.

All my love and fond memories.

Kat.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHH. Dad's on the phone with hiwndmuses's parents talking about me going to MI for a bit to visit.


BRB. HYPERVENTILATING.

Meme tiem~

Pick a fandom of mine and I'll answer the following;

1. The first character I fell in love with:
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do:
3. The character everyone else loves that I don't:
4. The character I love that everyone else hates:
5. The character I would shag anytime:
6. The character I'd want to be like:
7. The character I'd slap:
8. A pairing that I love:
9. A pairing that I despise:
10. Favorite character:
11. What are my five favorite things about the fandom:
12. What are my five least favorite things about the fandom:
13. Who are my five favorite characters:
14. Who are my five least favorite characters:
15. What are my five favorite pairings:
16. What are my five least favorite pairings:
17. Which character are you most like:
18. What is my deep, dark fandom secret:

***

Net is back up. Workin' on some stuff, but I'll be back back around Wednesday. Got a new AIM screenname too: skinnedbeesknees.

So I've started watching to old Star Trek TV series because I'm a geek and my internet keeps going on the fritz and it is really, really boring when I don't have to work.

It's hilarious and cheesy and I love it so much. I think I like the movie better though. :|

OH. YEAH. THE POINT OF THIS POST.

Mini-hiatus until the 'net gets itself back into gear. ♥

Yeah, so you know how my Juno icon was special because it was my only fandom icon? NOT ANYMORE. :|

Three guesses as to what the latest obsession is. The first two don't count, either.

The flist was getting a bit cluttered, so I did a bit of a friends cut (not that I have many LJ friends to start with /orz)

Kat is obsessed with ticky boxes, too, so if I made a mistake and you still want to be ElJay friendz, just comment and I'll re-add you~

Give me a character/pairing from any fandom I participate in and I'll give you one fanon that I don't agree with.

Fandoms I know fanon for:
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So apparently you can post via LJ Talk. Who knew? (yes this was a pointless post, shush. i'm trying to get my mine off of my knee. i see an orthopedic surgeon tomorrow. :<)

skldfjsd. I have Colt's number~. And he liiiiikes me~. I got out of work about an hour early because it was so slow so I was outside on the bench and he was bringing carts in from the parking lot. So we bantered. And sat together when he had break. And he hugged me when his break was over and he had to go inside and about thirty seconds into the hug he kinda sighs and goes "I don't want to move. I like being here with you." ALSJFDSALKDJ.

Ahem. Anyways.

We kidnapped the eighth graders. And I tripped on Tanner's driveway and skinned both my knees and elbows and my hips. More on that later.

We had them blindfolded in the back of the van as we drove to the Palisades. It was awesome. XD Jonathan and Jacob and Tanner were like screaming and squirming. And it was hilarious.

And then we did this thing after explaining what was going on where we had a contest to see who could keep their jaw closed the longest with an Alka-Seltzer tablet under their tongue and then a big swig of 7-Up in their mouth. And then we did a upper-classmen advice thing and then prayed for the freshies. And then we had s'mores. Kinsey and I bonded. You can't hold the door open to the pitch-black outhouse for someone without bonding at least a little.

Somehow I ended up with THE WORST tentmates, though. They excluded me because I use "big words" like silhouette. :|

And then they spent the entire time talking about who's hot and who's not and who's dating who and their boyfriends and who's fun to flirt with. So I txted Sarah and Colt all night. >_>

ANYWHO. Kinsey and I jammed in the van on the way home to 80s and 90s music. And then I had to go to the immediate care center because my knee was hurting so bad. It's not fractured or anything, but there may be some tendon/ligament damage. If it's still hurting around Thursday/Friday I'll have to get an MRI done. :\

It was an exciting 15 hours to say the least.

Okay. You remember that guy that I totally wasn't interested in at work who I flirted with a lot? Yeah. Totally crushing on him. And I'm like. 80% sure he's crushing on me too.

I'm... not sure how I feel about that. But. We're still flirting like crazy and doing the whole making eyes at each other across the aisles and "accidentally" brushing against the other's arm/leg/whatever thing.

sldfjk. I'm going to have an aneurysm. I blush too much. :|

But. Yeah. Probably asking him for his number later. >_> AGAIN. WISH ME LUCK. Nix is usually made of fail when it comes to these things.

I going camping tonight.

The highschool youth group is kidnapping the eighth graders who are technically now freshies and we're going up to the Palisades. And I mean we're seriously kidnapping them. Their parents know what we're doing but the kids themselves don't. >D

But. I've never been camping before. :< Nervous Nix is nervous. Wish me luck.

So... say there's this guy-- a friend, not someone you're interested in romantically-- who you work with. And the two of you flirt quite a bit because it's fun and you always get a nice witty repartee going. How do you ask said guy for his cell number without sounding like you're asking for his number? :|

I think I'm going crazy. Back when all the crap was going down with Ma's health and Dad's lack of job and stuff I had a lot of stress and I've come to recognize the physical signs for me-- nausea about twenty minutes after eating if not sooner, fatigue/hard time sleeping, chest pain, feeling my heart actually contract and relax as it beats...

It's been over a year since things settled down from that crazy period. I've had minor stress symptoms occasionally (mainly the feeling the heart and occasional bouts of my stomach showing that it's made of tissue paper and will get upset at the smallest things) but for the first time in... well over a year and a half I have all of those stress symptoms.

I'm thinking it's because of finals but. Why? I really only have one final and Dr. Dyer even said himself it's not a real final-- it's just like the other two tests I've taken in his class. I don't even HAVE a final in physics or algebra. They're just the last chapter tests.

And there's nothing really wrong with my health, either. I mean... I got over the flu virus that was freaking me out for a while and, yeah, my vitamin D levels are freaky low (you should have 30-50. mine were 7.) but they've got me on a vitamin regimen now and Dr. Dierks says everthing's going to be cool.

I've been taking my zoloft regularly, so that can't be it. But. I just have this huge stressed out feeling physically and it's making me stress out mentally and emotionally as well.

sdlfjsdflkj. Tomorrow needs to be over. Right now. So I can be done with school and just relax.

So today was going to be another studying/cleaning day, much like the rest of the week... but then, when I was walking around my room, planning how I was going to clean, the dull ache I've had in my right hip for a while now got really sharp. It's impossible to walk without some pain and I'm pretty sure it's one of the ligaments or tendons between my hip and leg, judging by the pull and where the pain is.

Shit is about the only thing I can think right now. It means more physical therapy and who knows how that's going to effect my job. It's not the best job in the world and I complain about it a lot, but I'm grateful to even HAVE a job and I don't want to lose it, no matter how sucky it is. I like my money kthx. It'll come in handy next year when college kinda-sorta starts.

This week has been and is going to be hell, but. Friday I'm flippin' done. With physics, with algebra, with homeschooling, with high school... I can't wait, even if next year is going to be all kinds of messed up.

... I haven't really talked about the whole school situation on here, have I? ._. Well... long and short of it is I only have to take psych and then I'm technically done with high school. I could try and do it over the summer and then take a year off as it's a bit late to be applying for colleges and I'm not quite ready for it yet, or (and this is what is going to happen should everything go according to plan) I'm going to take it at University of Sioux Falls next year. Turns out I can take up to 12 credit hours total as a highschool student, so that's what we're going to do. I'll be like a part-time college freshman/highschool senior. It's confusing, so I'm just saying I'm done with highschool this Friday. :|

Ugggh. Pain. BRB. Taking all the Motrin in the house. Only not because I hate hospitals.

... is it just me or is it sad that I just now realized the inside of my elbow is one big bruise from the blood test I got five days ago. :|

Just kind of a pointless post as I study for finals. Or, take a break from studying and from reading FMA. Ugh. I am offically caught up with the manga... and I want to RP Ed again like you wouldn't believe. D:

but. Physics calls.

... *gets on AIM* *someone distract me plz, I think my brain is going to burst*

Was in a sucky mood yesterday. Whined more than I should have. Sorry about that. I just... seriously am sick of hurting all over. BUT ANYWAYS. MEME. Stolen from lily22 prpl_pen and magharabi

1. Choose an episode of anime or television series you have on your computer. Make sure you're certain you want that one, you cannot change or mind once you skip this step. DO NOT TELL YOUR FLIST WHAT YOU CHOSE.
2. Make note of how long the episode is here -> I have a ton, so I will pick a random video. Somewhere between 10:00 and 2:30:00 for any of them. :D
3. Ask your f-list to choose a time between 00:00 and whatever the length of your episode is. Be specific, (ie: 19:11, 21:09, 02:42)
4. Make them an icon using THAT FRAME ONLY no matter what it is. And remember, you can only use that ONE episode you chose previous, even if the person posting isn't familiar with it.

Will icon when I get back. Stealing the break room comp right now since my phone died. >_>

L-lmao. I fail at hiatusing, don't I? >_>

BUT. YEAH. LAST POST FOR THE DAY.

Literally five minutes off my break one of the managers comes up and goes "Ten minute break!" I'm just like. "Uhhhhhhhh....lolwhut." I managed to get her to make my break later, so. Whoo. ONE MORE HOUR AND THEN I'M OFF. I will spend the rest of the night blaring my iPod and doing physics. and reading fma fic YAY SCREWED UP WORK WEEKENDS. :|

(updating again because the computer at work is laaaaame.)

HA. HAHA. MY MANAGER. FORGOT ABOUT MY LUNCH BREAK. So after going five hours without a break (you're supposed to get one every two point five hours on an eight hour shift) I am FINALLY getting my half hour break. I... am so hungry.... it's not evern funny.

*EATS THE ENTRIE GROCERY STORE*

*GETS NEW JOB MY MANAGERS SUCK THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME THIS'S HAPPENED*